I wanted to be honest and very open with the guys I met. I wanted them to know what I had went through and what my body looked like after and if they were scared or turned off, I wanted them to leave as soon as possible. I wasn't married and wasn't big into dating for a while after my breast cancer diagnosis and the surgery.

About a year after it happened, I met a guy through a friend of a friend and we really had a great time with each other. We took things pretty slowly, but when we finally decided to get intimate, I had a hard time accepting my body, and figuring out how to lose myself in the romance. I was very self conscious and wouldn't allow him to look or touch be from the waist up.

I'm thankful for his patience and acceptance, but my personal adventure toward being comfortable having sex again took over two years. I was widowed for five years and had an active dating life before, but after, I had no desire. Both of my breasts had been removed.

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I lost my hair from chemo. I felt so unlike myself.

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It took me four years, and the help of a support group I joined of women going through something similar, to get back out there. Since all of this, I haven't gotten remarried, but I did find myself in two long relationships, where both men were completely okay with my body and my lack of breasts.

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That was reassuring because It was not what I expected. When I tell guys that, only the guys I'm serious about and may sleep with, they ask me the rudest and dumbest questions. One guy asked me why I didn't go for a D cup when I got reconstructive surgery. Another asked if he could touch them because he's never felt fake boobs before.

He was confused and a little shocked, and that feeling never passed, even after I explained why I had said what I did.

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Perhaps it was my delivery, or the sheer magnitude of what I was going through, but nothing was the same between us after that moment. He questioned why I would opt for breast implants after the mastectomy, rather than supporting my decision.

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I felt alone and judged. We continued on this path for some months, while also dating other people. But his words stuck with me. He and I stopped talking a week before my surgery.

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That experience left me terrified to date-while-BRCA. But Unglert, who lost his mother to breast cancer when he was a teenager, reacted to Murphy the way any woman would hope for in a moment that could break a relationship — and her confidence. She continued to joke, saying Unglert could be the judge of her newly constructed chest. My body was a work in progress for the better part of two years.

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I tried going on dates, but to get comfortable in front of men, I kept getting drunk. By the time I brought someone home, I was no longer aware of, or interested in, how they felt about my chest. My plastic surgeon followed my request to make my reconstructed chest the same size and shape as my natural chest. In clothes, I look exactly the same as I did before Oct. You see the speckled, multicolored area where skin was removed.

You see areola without nipples.